well i am in the library with neal and levi... trying to study for my book of mormon final but i am really having a hard time doing that. I am trying to listen to church music as I study but every church song reminds me of taylor... plus i am not in the mood to dig around for these answers to the questions on my final study guide.... I feel like... I don't even know actually what I feel like!

Tonight I am going to say goodbye to my volleyball team, the 10 girls I coached this last semester and tomorrow I am packing up dorm and getting ready to head home to az. I feel like so many things are ending and at the same time like so many things are beginning. I met this apartment full of guys, two are my home teachers, who have become some of my greatest friends up here. They listen to me talk about taylor and have even cried with them and they are just amazing. I laugh my butt off with them. I feel happier when I am around them and I love them very much. I am sad because many of them are going on missions and the one who isnt is staying here and I am going home. I wonder why I have become so close to them so late into the year.... I just feel so grateful for these great friends and I know I will stay close to them, where ever I am.

I am excited to go home to arizona to start my job. I am working at Nordstrom rack 6 days a week from 8-5 as of now... lots of time to distract me from thinking about missing taylor and lots of work to help me make moolah! I can't wait to be back in the sunshine and be back with my family and my friends! I can't wait to see Cece!!!! I am going to try not to blog until I am done with finals. I like blogging I like writing down how I feel... Anyway, I will try and study now. adios.

They are CRAZAY and I love em!